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Whatever form I had ended up is working for me and gave me something
to fill in the void of what was lost due to Lupus. If sound came out, I could play along with my favorite songs, then my goal
was getting closer! To be able to enjoy music, specifically the sound of a bass, was freeing and self satisfying.
Instead of having to lay down, rest and miss out on so many experiences I once took for granted was a dismal outlook,
one which would surely lead to giving up that active, artistic side of me. Becoming stuck within my symptoms only became
the perfect setting for negative thinking, a loss of will to do anything remotely fun and fulfilling, and a constant reminder
of the pain associated with a disease that deteriorates. But, was it possible to learb to make music? Were the people who said I
couldn't learn an instrument right? I figured this;
"It's not always about the
JOURNEY nor the DESTINATION. Rather it's about the experiences along the way, the
lessons learned, and the satisfaction of trying. Getting there was icing on the cake."
I received comments from people who'd been made fun of, bullied about their choice
of music or the fact they even are trying to learn.
Frustrated, embarassed, and sad they'd stop pursuing their dream to follow a passion,
to learn something new, or take up a new hobby. That their disability, illness or status in a world that
places so much pressure on being perfect, and fitting a mold made by others would never be attainable to them.
But for me, the mean comments only served as a catalyst that kept me moving forward. The greatest push
to keep on was those people who cheered me on, gave me great advice that would make playing that bass easier,
and who would say that I, this grandma who didn't feel her age, only felt her illness, was an inspiration.
That has been the surpise I've had on this journey, that I made a difference in someone's life that has their own struggles and could relate.
The chronic illnesses and debilitating symptoms which gave me a reason to do this remind me my passion and this learning process had far greater
meaning to me than the rights to be able to say, "I play bass too! I've been learning, why? Because I can!" has been a hard fight and
worth doing all over agin. This site has my journal of the ups and
downs. I share where I find great support, good
online lessons, and a community of musicians without inflated egos, that
play for the love of music...Read on!
You can watch and hear me play bass from the very start on
my YouTube Channel. If
anything, I hope this site inspires you to pick up music or whatever you
have a passion for & try it. You don't have to have an illness or life changing event to follow a
passion, you just have to want it bad enough, no matter what your
circumstances are. Oh, and to you who make the negative comments, your
comments get deleted after I read. Well some do get deleted, I keep most of them online along
with my response. You can't put yourself out there like this and not expect haters or
negative comments. I'll take advice, obervations and even criticsm as long as it's not rude, hateful or useless.
Thank you for
visiting and please check back as I add more links and everything to do with loving music. I would love to hear
your stories of how you began your passion as well. Please feel free to drop
me a line or comment here
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